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Created on 2008-03-25 19:31:16 (#15232668), last updated 2008-03-26

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Name:	alyssanesthetic
Birthdate:	06-22
Website:	The spacee.

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Giving my heart out so easily, it means trouble. It means fuck overs. It means heartbreak. It’s not hard to get to my heart, and it’s just as easy to break it. I make more mistakes than accomplishments. My past is shaky and my heart is on time out. Drama knows no boundaries with me. And I’ll be okay, is that what you want me to say? It’s called breakdown cause it’s broken. My self esteem begins with you, I need your opinion. Pleasing you is my number one goal, it gets me in a lot of trouble. And I need this more than I did before. I love music, hoping I can write beautiful lyrics one day. I will write about you, I will write about your life. I am about as unique as someone in a world full of uniqueness can be. Trying so hard to please, I always get hurt. But these days, who doesn’t? I don’t know if I believe in love at first sight or even love for that matter. ^{Care to prove me wrong??} I like the sweet guys but never seem to find them. If you can go from armor to tinfoil in two seconds then I am your girl. I change for anyone, I aim to please. I love it when a boy smiles in my direction, I’m pathetic. I fall for just about ever guy who talks to me, then fall right back out. I find inspiration in music, the miscellaneous kind. My mood varies, I am bi polar. I love to go out, but I never benefit from it. I live for now and never think about my decisions until it’s too late. Most people think I’m a slut. Some think I’m amazing. Few are right. I don’t really know what I am. I don’t know where I came from [as in God], I don’t know where I’m going, but I hope you come along for the ride. I love your company, it makes my day. Anyone has the power to make or break me. I am always looking at boys, even though they never do me good. I am always open for conversation; the best conversations are the ones held by complete strangers. When I don’t have my camera in my hand, it’s my guitar. I’m no god, but I’m okay. Come and listen sometime, I’ll write you a love song. Or lust if that’s your game, I aim to please. Confused on right and wrong, the ending if never so bitter. Whisper sweet words in my ear and I’m yours.

I carry your heart with me, I carry it in my heart. I am never without it anywhere I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling. I fear no fate. For you are my fate, my sweet I want no world. For beautiful you are my world, my true. And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant. And whatever a sun will always sing is you. Here is the deepest secret nobody knows. Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud. And the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide. And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart. I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart.